Post by HAWK on Dec 8, 2011 19:41:31 GMT -5
Hello members of DD, this is Hawk here. For those who remember me, I just want to say I'm sorry - and for all those reading I'd like to tell you my reasons for dropping everything as I did... I know it's not going to help in the slightest or ease my guilt that I wasn't here for peachie when she passed.
A few months ago, I lost my job and my home and was forced to move back in with my dad - that was all fine and well for a while and I managed to come on, meet some friends and roleplay with all my free time which I just loved to do. I even opened up my own roleplay site (I Killed The Cat) which remains open and is run by Kunta more or less full time now. It was great! but I should have known there was harder times to come. A few weeks past, I was sent a letter from the council charging my father a ridiculous amount of money because I was living there as a non-dependant. My father who is disabled with two other children and a wife, couldn't afford to pay up and up until now it has more or less been us against the council (Who have stopped his benefit. Something that he and his kids survive on.) so I didn't have much choice but to stay with my mum until things settled over - which they slowly have started to and I'm now back staying with my dad. I've just been able to pay off the debt with the money I got as inheritence from my grandmother who passed away from cancer earlier this year. Once again I thought I was on the right track.
Then I got the news that my grandfather has been diagnosed with skin cancer for the second time and has so far had skin on his face removed. It has been up to us as his family to help him and thus we have been spreading our time between the city, home, my mothers, the court, the hospital and now the vets (My Giant has Cheyletiella mite) which is costing us a fortune. On top of this I have spent every spare minute looking for work which never seems to appear and thus my time on the internet is limited and my roleplaying non-existent. You have no idea how much I loved this site and all the members in it. The most i get these days is the odd glimpse when I go to check my e-mails - hence how I found out that Peachie had passed away (Silent PM'd me.). I've been so ashamed that I've neglected everything and missed out on a good thing that I didn't even know what to say. It will be some time until I have sorted everything out - and I don't ever expect a warm welcome back but until I have myself sorted I can't commit to anything else.
Anyway, I hope everyone else is doing good.
Hawkclaw, Cedarstep, Smellykit.
A few months ago, I lost my job and my home and was forced to move back in with my dad - that was all fine and well for a while and I managed to come on, meet some friends and roleplay with all my free time which I just loved to do. I even opened up my own roleplay site (I Killed The Cat) which remains open and is run by Kunta more or less full time now. It was great! but I should have known there was harder times to come. A few weeks past, I was sent a letter from the council charging my father a ridiculous amount of money because I was living there as a non-dependant. My father who is disabled with two other children and a wife, couldn't afford to pay up and up until now it has more or less been us against the council (Who have stopped his benefit. Something that he and his kids survive on.) so I didn't have much choice but to stay with my mum until things settled over - which they slowly have started to and I'm now back staying with my dad. I've just been able to pay off the debt with the money I got as inheritence from my grandmother who passed away from cancer earlier this year. Once again I thought I was on the right track.
Then I got the news that my grandfather has been diagnosed with skin cancer for the second time and has so far had skin on his face removed. It has been up to us as his family to help him and thus we have been spreading our time between the city, home, my mothers, the court, the hospital and now the vets (My Giant has Cheyletiella mite) which is costing us a fortune. On top of this I have spent every spare minute looking for work which never seems to appear and thus my time on the internet is limited and my roleplaying non-existent. You have no idea how much I loved this site and all the members in it. The most i get these days is the odd glimpse when I go to check my e-mails - hence how I found out that Peachie had passed away (Silent PM'd me.). I've been so ashamed that I've neglected everything and missed out on a good thing that I didn't even know what to say. It will be some time until I have sorted everything out - and I don't ever expect a warm welcome back but until I have myself sorted I can't commit to anything else.
Anyway, I hope everyone else is doing good.
Hawkclaw, Cedarstep, Smellykit.